Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Other People's Lives

I have never really had what you would call a "Good" day. I don't tell you this to make you feel sorry for me, I don't know what I am missing so it's all good. I tell you this so you will understand why I think the way I do about other people's lives. I have always been sick, or in pain. ALWAYS. I don't really ever feel like doing anything much besides getting on the computer or reading. A nurse told me that one step for a normal person is like ten steps for me. Think about that for a minute. Think of all the steps you took today, now multiply that by ten. I have a dear friend who is an actress and living in New York. She had a movie come out last month and she is always posting pictures of her life, parties, working on movies, going to dinner with friends. I watch movies about the fast paced lives some people lead and I cannot wrap my head around it. I cannot imagine being able to run errands and go to dinner on the same day much less do any of the things other people do. I look at them and think, "Is that real? What does that feel like?" I am 45 years old and just realizing that there is a whole world of people out there, living lives and doing things I cannot even imagine and here I sit on my couch. I guess I am rambling but it just struck me this morning that my world is truly so small, but there is a world out there where people are living and having all kinds of exciting lives. I told my actress friend this morning that I wish I could be her for one day because one day would wear me out, but if I were healthy and normal and her for one day, I might not want to change back! I know there is a reason for everything and all of that jazz, God made me this way for a reason, but I sure wish he had given me just a little more energy and good health.


  1. I knew you in High School but we never really hung out. I never realized how great a person you are. I am thankful for Facebook because I got to truly get to know you and your struggles and your pleasures. You have a heart of gold with a attitude to match. You can be hurting and down in the dumps, yet you can cheer me up when I am pissed of just not having a good day. When I lost the use of my legs for several months I thought "what have I done to myself" I realized I had to fight and try to do the best I could. I have recovered almost 90%. However, I was scared and irrated when I could not do the things I used to do. I can not imagine what you go through on a daily basis. I only had a problem for several months and I was on the pitty pot the whole time. Yet you had this going on most of your life and still manage to put a smile on. You get up, dress up, and show up. Then to top it all off. You have this great smile and positive attitude which rubs off on others. Hell you make me laugh daily and I don't even hear you voice. Thanks Gimpy Girl, or should I say my good friend Terrie.

  2. I am thankful for Facebook because it helped me find out what a wonderful guy you are and hilarious too!! You make me laugh all the time and I am so grateful for that. I think if we had been friends in high school the town of Paris would not have survived lol I haven't always been one who doesn't feel sorry for myself, I often allow myself a 15-30 minute pity party but no longer because I get stuck in it if I go any longer. The problems I have I have had since I was born so I really don't know any different. I am so glad to be able to make you laugh too because the joy you bring to me is something I can never repay. You my dear friend are a hoot!!